complexion of white canvas: of pride and crying

Made after reading an angsty fiction. I was like dammit, ready to cry after I finished. But, no. I couldn’t cry because, I’m in living room and so are my parents and brother. If they see me crying… Well, they will label me as a mad and my brother won’t stop laughing. So, this is made to let out my frustration. /smiles innocently (?)/



complexion of white canvas
– of pride and crying –
word count: 437 (+ omake: 497)


She wouldn’t cry. She already swore that it wouldn’t happen.

Yet, she found herself staring at her cellphone’s screen, eyes glistening because, dammit, a little more and she was sure as hell that she would break and cry.

But, if she couldn’t hold at least a few minutes, surely her pride would be wounded because—

“Come on, Flee! I know you’re about to cry!” Astrild teased and Flee growled.

“Am not. Shut up, Ast,” retorted Flee. Her eyes still focused on her cellphone’s screen. “I won’t cry just because some cliché stuffs you gave me to read.”

“But, I’m sure you will break, Flee. Just a bit amount of angst and you’ll be moping right now,” said Astrild playfully.

Flee wasn’t sure what she would do right now—put her cellphone nicely and hunt down her dearly character, or deadpan and continue to read the story until it ended, or just break down and cry, because—dammitbastard!—this story was so… angsty.

One look at Astrild—with the annoying grin of hers still plastered across her damn face—and Flee decided that the she wouldn’t choose the third option. Because a) it cost all her pride and b) she wouldn’t let Astrild of all people be the one who see her soft side. No. Even though she was the first character made by Flee. Just, no.

Maybe this was a clue to do her alternative plan section A number four. A plan to deal with Astrild Erretha.

“Hey, Ast,” Flee called, “wanna play Truth or Dare?”

Astrild blinked. “Sure. Truth or dare?”

“No, no.” Flee shook her head, “you are the first—truth or dare?”

“What?!” Astrild protested. “You are the one who suggested to play—!”

Flee tsked. “Is it the way to tell me that ‘I’m so coward! I’m not gonna be the first!’ Hm?” She mocked, her triumph grin plastered across her face. Alright, ace card settled down.

As usual, Astrild glared her. “Alright. I choose dare, young miss.”

This made Flee’s grin grew wider. Her plan, succeeded!

“I dare you to go out—leave and do not come any closer to me and my house—until the rest of day.” She ordered.

For the nth time, Flee was so grateful to make Astrild hating so much to be labelled as coward.

“Okay.” Astrild grumbled. A few minutes later, Flee heard the front door of her house closed rather roughly, along with Astrild’s shout.

“I shall come tomorrow, Flee!”

Well, she smirked. She wouldn’t have her pride wounded and Astrild would stay away from her house.

So, she could cry with no problem now.



//end//


Omake xD
“So. Truth or dare, Flee?” Astrild challenged and Flee groaned.

“No, Ast. That’s yesterday’s game. It’s expired now,” argued Flee.

“It isn’t fair, y’know! You haven’t done anything—and you are the one who suggested to play—!”

“Hmm? So you are a coward—?”

“Shut up!” Astrild interrupted. She gave Flee her most frightening glare and Flee just smirked.



Okay, I feel alright now. Huft.

edited: May 28th
So xD I just re-read this and found grammar mistakes 83 also, added omake (because, really, teasing Astrild and calling her coward is fun 8DDDD

complexion of white canvas: sunshine

This was meant to be submitted to a certain challenge, but I found that this piece turned into a failure so I changed my mind. But, I couldn’t help but want to publish it. Since I forget my FictionPress’ password and e-mail, so, WordPress sounds good anyways. /shrugs/



complexion of white canvas
– sunshine –
word count: 177


“Really, I don’t understand why you did this just for me to smile, but…” A smile appears, “thank you so much, you did a good job.”

You laugh, stratching the back of your head. “It doesn’t matter, Nattie. Guess that I couldn’t keep that as a secret, huh?”

The smile of the person who called by you as Nattie grows into a smirk. “It was all written on your face actually,” She says, “kinda like this: ‘Hey, Nat, look! I made you this and all you have to do to thank is smile’.” She laughs, and then you too.

“I’m glad you like it, anyways.”

She stops laughing, and then stares you firmly. “No—I love it.”

A smile appears on your face. “Thanks.”

Who knows that a certain application, literally, suggested you to do this? But, anyways, it doesn’t seem to bother Nattie to know how you came up with this idea.

So, it is better not to mention this to her. Or the smile on her face will disappear and you still love your soul.



To clear some confusions (in case if any of you have):
1) Written in 2nd POV. You know, using ‘you-you’ as the 1st character. And, I can’t come up with name nor gender, so it’s up to you to decide~!

2) What Nattie’s friend did, my fellow, will remain as a secret. /winks/



Wohooo~ light-hearted drabble because I heard a nice song and it brought up my mood to write a light-hearted one instead of a dark theme I’ve been struggling to do.

Anyways, it is meant to be “sun” theme. I think I don’t digress from the theme, since sun, in my opinion, means innocence and happiness. Aw.

Ehm, until next time~!

/flee, astrild, and althea: an hour of meeting/

“Aku tak percaya kau melakukannya.”

“Begitupun juga aku,” kata Althea sambil menggelengkan kepalanya, “kau itu mudah digoda, ya, Flee?”

“Sudahlah!” seru Flee dengan wajah memerah sambil menutup kedua telinganya dengan kedua telapak tangannya. “Lagipula, untuk apa kalian datang ke sini?!”

Astrild dan Althea saling berpandang satu sama lain, kemudian memandang Flee dengan cengiran yang menghiasi wajah mereka berdua. “Tentu saja untuk mengunjungi penulis kami yang tercinta~!” nyanyi mereka berdua dengan nada gembira, yang seketika membuat Flee meringis.

“Hentikan, kalian seperti anak-anak saja,” omel Flee. Kedua tangannya masih menutupi kedua telinganya, “harap dicatat bahwa kalian sebentar lagi masuk SMA.”

“Hal yang sama berlaku juga padamu, Flee,” komentar Althea sambil menjulurkan lidahnya, “kau juga sebentar lagi SMA dan masih seperti anak-anak.”

Flee memutar matanya. “Jangan mengikuti perkataanku, Lecta,” katanya datar.

“Tapi yang dikatakan Alecta juga ada benarnya, loh, Flee,” ujar Astrild sambil meletakkan telunjuk kanannya di dagunya, “sikapmu seperti anak-anak. Hey, Lec, masih ingat tidak, kejadian sebelum ulang tahunnya?”

Althea mengangkat sebelah alisnya. “Yang mana?”

“Dia ngambek karena tidak ada orang memberinya selamat ketika jam 12,” jelas Astrild, “kau ingat?”

“Biar kuingat dulu…” kata Althea sambil berpikir, “ah, ya! Aku ingat dia memandang ponselnya dengan ekspresi semacam sakit hati begitu.”

“Kalian berdua, sudahlah,” erang Flee sambil memijit pelipisnya. “Jangan membongkar aib di sini.”

“Kami tidak membongkar aibmu, kok,” sahut Astrild. Di sampingnya, Althea mengangguk.

“Ya, kami hanya merundingkanmu di sini,” tambah Althea ceria.

Dalam hati, Flee mengerang. Kenapa ia bisa menciptakan kedua tokoh yang seperti saudara kembar dan merepotkan begini?

“Aku membencimu,” gumam Flee kesal, “kalian berdua. Andai saja aku tak berada dalam limit untuk mengirim karakterku kembali ke dunia mereka, kalian sudah kukirim kembali daritadi.”

Mendengar hal ini, Astrild dan Althea nyengir. “Sejam bersama Flee~!” seru mereka kompak, yang membuat Flee melotot seketika.



“Jujur, kalian ke sini dalam rangka apa, hah?”

Althea hendak membuka suara—sepertinya mengganggu penciptanya menjadi salah satu hobi barunya saat ini—namun, untung saja, Astrild mendahului.

“Hanya mau memberitahumu,” kata Astrild, “kalau kau melanggar janjimu.”

Flee melongo. “Hah? Janji apa? Seingatku, aku tak pernah berjanji apapun pada kalian berdua,” jawabnya.

Astrild berdecak kesal, sementara Althea menggelengkan kepalanya sambil mengerucutkan bibirnya. “Masa kau lupa? Ingat, kau pernah berjanji takkan membaca apapun yang berhubungan dengan R18—” Ucapan Astrild segera dipotong oleh Flee sambil gelegapan.

“O—oh, yang itu, ya…” Flee tertawa kikuk, “er… kau kan tahu kalau aku kan addict ke pairing itu, jadi karena pasokan fic-nya sudah tidak cukup jadi… Ahahahaha…” Ia tertawa gelegapan ketika tatapan tajam dari keduanya diarahkan padanya.

‘Serius… Kedua orang itu bisa menjadi seram hanya dalam waktu beberapa detik,’ batin Flee sambil menelan ludah.

“Apa benar?”

“Serius?”

“Bukan karena kau telah depresi ya?”

“Kekurangan pasokan R18?”

“Apa doujinshi tidak mencukupimu ya?”

Flee memutar matanya mendengar serentetan pertanyaan dari Althea dan Astrild. “Ya, ya, tidak, bisa jadi, dan tidak,” jawabnya. “Sudah jelas?”

“Alasan kenapa kau membacanya?” tanya Astrild.

“Err…” Flee berpikir sejenak, menimbang-nimbang apakah ia harus jujur atau tidak, “itu bisa dibilang tidak sengaja, atau memang depresi, atau juga… nekat. Atau bisa juga dibilang karena mereka terlalu lucu, ya ampun, siapa sangka KidConan itu lucu?!” Pada kalimat terakhir, nada suara Flee meninggi sehingga ia terdengar seperti memekik.

“Hei, hei, Flee,” kata Althea, “jangan histeris, oke? Ingat, jangan histeris.”

“Tapi,” bantah Flee, “mereka terlalu imu~t!”

“Ya ya ya, aku tahu mereka imut. Tapi jangan histeris, oke? Terakhir kali kau histeris itu…” Althea melirik Astrild, memintanya secara tak langsung untuk melanjutkan perkataannya.

“…sederetan hal buruk terjadi,” sambung Astrild. Flee hanya memutar matanya.

“Tidak seburuk itu, kok,” komentarnya datar, “kalian melebih-lebihkan.”

“Tidak juga,” bantah Althea, “terakhir kau histeris itu pikiranmu jadi gila dan kau membaca lebih dari sepuluh fic R18, sebuah laptop hang, kuota tab juga ponselmu mengalir dengan deras, dan seseorang marah padamu.”

“Menurutku itu tak terlalu buruk, kok,” balas Flee. “Biasa saja malahan.”

Kali ini giliran Althea yang memutar matanya.

Flee melirik ke arloji sakunya, yang entah ia dapat dari mana, dan nyengir. “Baiklah. Sejam telah berakhir! Kurasa aku telah mendapat kembali kekuatan untuk menghilangkan karakter!” serunya gembira. Seketika juga, ia menjentikkan jarinya dan tubuh Astrild dan Althea memudar sebelum mereka berdua dapat berkata apapun.

here again.

screw everything. i hate today. first, im forbidden to play computer. second, my brother broke my tab. third, my post FAILED AGAIN and soon my handphone restarted itself. why?! yesterday i was happily-cheerly-everything-ly and now everything’s screwed. not mentioning that my mother got angry to me at night yesterday. everything seems to be fcked up after i felt happy.