along these candles

along these candles, the
clock tells
“it’s already quarter to one,”
the calendar whispers
sadly, “it’s a month already,”
but, i stubbornly,
sit across white,
toneless white room. waiting
for you approaching;
giving a big hug,
a warm greetings,
a childish comment,
splashes of colors to
this room,
a “i love you” –
but the door won’t budge.


Sooooo. Hi. Mom decided to end my banned-state because I became a nice daughter to her. Basically this is about “a boy waits for her girlfriend to come, but sadly his girlfriend has already passed away. He can’t accept that, and still is waiting in a white room of his”.

Um, anyway! This is marked as my 99th posts in here. I’d like to give an oration here, but sadly I’m not in mood doing it. Maybe later, when I post the 100th posts.

as the rain pours down

you packed everything, while
i am still here waiting for a
thing that is not certain

things that show our days
are thrown away with fury and anger
you walk to the door

you packed everything, while
i am still here; feeling desperate and
the dark shallows me again

tick-tock-tick-tock the
clock rings for the nth times, i
don’t care anything more



im trying, alright? this is the first time i did haiku. i can’t say more because im not quite familiar with syllables, so yeah. it’s kind of failure, i know.

Love: A First Story (ae’s POV)

Pemuda itu tak menarik. Sungguh, ia tak menarik sama sekali.

Astrild Erretha mengulang-ulang kalimat itu dalam hati ketika Althea Chaddesley sudah menyikutnya beberapa kali. Althea memang gemar menjadi mak comblang untuk Astrild. Ia berulang kali meneriakkan ‘ceilaaaah, si Asti ternyata udah gede!!!!’, yang biasa dibalas Asti dengan sikutan maut miliknya.

Kembali pada pemuda tadi. Asti berulang kali membatin, ‘Tidak, tidak. Dia tidak menarik, pertama. Dua, dia sudah punya pacar, ingat itu Asti! Tapi… lumayan juga tampangnya ketika bermain gitar… tunggu, apa yang kupikirkan?! Asti, sadarlaaaah!!!’ Wajah Asti memerah ketika memikirkan hal itu. Dicubitnya pipi sebelah kanannya, guna menyadarkan kembali imajinasinya.

“Sudahlah, Ast. Kausuka padanya, kan?!” desis Althea sambil menyeringai ceria.

Astrild menjulurkan lidahnya pada Althea, melewati sang pemuda dan berbalik menatap Althea yang sedang senyam-senyum gaje.

“Aku tak menyukainya, Lecta. Mana mungkiiinnn!” balas Astrild sambil tertawa. “Lagian, bukan hanya dia cowok di siniii!”

“Hallaahhh!!! Astrild Erretha, dasar pembohong!!!” tukas Althea sambil tertawa.